Rough & Tough

I was really have a rough week last week..

Getting really pissed at myself  & the world and all the imperfections of myself..

I have been really lost & distant from the world and my mind has just been really wondering..

I don't have a GOAL in life.

I don't have any DREAMS i would like to pursue

I somehow think i will just leave it to FATE...

Or maybe GOD.

But without any goals & dreams i find my life so meaningless.

And my prayer would be,

"God, i pray that you would guide me .. In finding a Goal in life.. Maybe some nice dreams.. Most importantly i just want a purpose to continue living. Lean not on my own strength but in you . Thank you for always protecting me.. Let me not take you for granted.. Let me desire for you to take care of my life. Jesus, Take the wheel. Amen"

My bad habit is to rely on myself heavily.. I try my best to not bother my friends & i just

take on the weight all on my shoulders. Well, sometimes i end up pulling through with some sores on my back which i'll keep complaining.. & sometimes i just fall down, break down and don't know what to do..

But i guess i need to go back to God.. Rely on him .

But not forgetting my friends, i guess they are always there for me.. 

But i hate sharing the burden with people.. I feel bad.. 

Sad Post but i just needa do some reflection..
Peace Out, 

RachoLIKABOSS

Broken Hearted

Today's Blog Post will be dedicated to people who recently broke up, facing through a certain struggle, 

anything that may have left u feeling all broken

BROKEN-NESS, this word.. everyone heard the word broken before..

We always say, "You can mend a broken heart, but you cant remove the scar." 

Firstly, let me just give you a definition of what BROKEN means.

it refers to something that was once WHOLE/ It no longer serves its purpose

& lastly, We will not get the full image from anything broken. 

From these definitions, well.. it makes us look at Broken-ness negatively.. 

Not surprising in fact. However, have you ever thought of accepting this broken part of you? 

Its not exactly "Positive Thinking", but more towards knowing that you are broke but yet.. 

STRANGELY enough, blessed!! Yes, i said Blessed. Why? 

Regardless of what it actually is, be it losing ur loved one to maybe 

breaking up with your your bf/gf.. THIS Broken-ness allows all of us, to reach out to people

with similar problems. You may think of it stupidly.. but only you can relate to this people.. 

And they can't exactly say "You don't understand, you haven't felt it.." can they? 

SINCE YOU ARE FACING IT NOW. All it takes is for you to be strong.. 

In terms of WILL, MIND, HEART & EVEN BODY !

You will be the closest to their heart, being just the right person to touch that person's heart!

Isn't it beautiful? How "negative" situation/problems touches people hearts. If you don't believe me, there are plenty of examples out there in the world.. One of whom is Nick Vujicic! The man with only 1 limb? He's an inspiration to many & why? because he went through it & prove everyone that 

PROBLEMS "DOES NOT =" LIFE SUCKS. 

Nothing in life happens without a reason & there is always something good in something bad :D

So.. HANG ON :D

Beneath this act cute face.. Is a broken soul.. yet within this broken-ness, 

I hope it relates :D 

Thankyou :D Peace Out! 

Racholikaboss

School Start ! Happy or Sad ?

So i'm taking a break from all the damn researching & revising for school.. & Decided to BLOG :D 

So.. SCHOOL STARTED. It was a Mixture of both Happy & Sad feels ...

I am superrrr Glad that i don't really have to work my Admin Job anymore PLUS

i sort of enjoy the lessons with my classmates haha :D They are a great bunch of peepz.

HOWEVER, studying sucks ah.. boring & tiring D: Feel so mentally worn out these few days..

Things won't be getting any easier & simpler but i pray that God will Guide me through :D 

SPEAKING of school stuff,

I AM SO GLAD THAT I GOT INTO PLAYBACK THEATRE NOW.

I was really afraid & unsure what to expect from the CDS i got.. but i'm really glad i'm enjoying 

it so much ! All the acting & just drama.. Even though i don't have drama background and all.. it's still 

rather fun haha :D

Quote of the day ~ "Fear makes you really Friendly, however isit really you?"

I somehow was deep in thought when i noticed.. Sometimes my smiles and the really happy me i portray

to people.. Its FAKE. Yeah.. Faking a smiles is easier than explaining what happens or even worrying others. But, it shows that im really afraid. I'm afraid of people not accepting me as a guy who has his moments? Its a normal thing to have ups & downs.. So why am i even afraid.. I fear..

Do you realise, the first day or two you meet someone.. You tend to show a friendly side of yourself.. 

Why?

Because we fear that people will judge the REAL YOU. Its in the nature of humans to judge someone just by looking at them, what more when you show the ugly side of you? That is why the sad, crazy & ranting moments are always shared with the people who you consider CLOSE FRIENDS. 

Anyway its just me & my thoughts. You may have your own opinion to it :D But this is what is see & what i noticed :D YAY im maintaining my blog (sorta) SEE YA GUYS SOON 

Signing Off, 

RachoLIKABOSS